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Let's turn back time to January 2011 (Short List of Things I Desire)
And weeeeellll, let's see how much I have done so far.
Tablet PC
Learn:
to cook
to draw
music theory
electric guitar
violin
piano
drum
Vocal:
opera
scream
Language:
Spanish
Latin
Gothic
Produce some albums
International albums
+DVD player
Write a best-selling novel
Be an actress
Be a hairdresser
Be a graphic designer
Have a part-time job
Find a kind, loyal, handsome, and rich husband
Special wedding (not greet-sit-eat-sing-photo-gohome)
Have two kids
A boy as the first, a girl as the latter
Watch my children grow and get married
Watch my grandchildren grow at least until they earn their titles from universities.
And here is some additions:
Satisfying IELTS score
Admitted to LASALLE College of The Arts (Bachelor, first level, no foundation needed, yay!)
Not much, isn't it? I supposed to learn more in a year *nervous laugh*
Well anyway, the greatest accomplishment so far is the last one on the list :)
It should've been no great impact on me, as it is for that person's and my own good as well. Or that was what he said. He said I might hate him afterwards. But I didn't, for I already regard him as my siblings.
And yet, it hurts somehow. That mere sentence hurts. So much.
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So there we go, our hands itched to grab those miniatures. Yeah, I bought a miniature. Why? Because I have a soon-to-be holiday with my friends, and bringing along an 80mL diamond-shaped bottle worth 6 digits rupiahs
L'Eau par Kenzo pour Homme, by Kenzo, 5ml EDT
note: That was dad's
Jasmin Noir, by Bvlgari, 5ml EDP
note: MINE. Minemineminemine!
♥
I have my National Examination tomorrow and for the next three days. Am I nervous? Yes I am. And insomnia seems to come at a bad time, so I write this to drain my energy. Well, to get back to the sleepy state faster. I always wonder why it is very easy for me to fall asleep at noon when I take a nap, but takes what seems like years to slumber at night. Nah, whatever.
By the way, people say if you dreamed of someone, it means that person thought of you before they slept. If it is true, then my dreams lately are good signs. But, if it's true anyway, then I wonder how many times I have appeared in that person's dream..
Man, I feel like a stalker.
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(Bad inner girl: I'm in a legal drinking age now, mwahahahahahaha!!)
My day started as usual, awaken by an alarm clock. But this morning, I spot something different on my phone's notification. There was a whatsapp logo. I rubbed my eyes while my other hand was busy opening the whatsapp messages. There, I got several greetings. But the first one was from Willy :) I'll post a picture of both of us as a tribute, nyeheheh. Thankyou Willy Ketiu Imut le Bangsat De'Susanto :*
On Twitter, I received more greetings that I cannot possibly mention one by one here. But anyway, thanks for the greetings guys :*
So, my morning was back as usual before I sat down to eat my breakfast. My dad sat across me, eating silently. And all of the sudden, he asked me, "Ai be cake o?"
I starred at him, blinking twice before I said, "Sui pien ni la"
Then my day returned as usual.
At school, I got several greetings from my friends, and they planned to hand me a cake after lunch, but I came back from the toilet too fast and they haven't turned the lights off :B
Cake from friends ♥
Well, actually, when my parents fetched me, we.. Err.. bought another cake. When I ask them why, they simply said, "We haven't eaten the cake. And we want photographs."
Second Cake
We went to Duck King at Cambridge mall to have our dinner. And I ordered coconut pudding as my dessert, because it looked mouth-watering, and because it claimed to be made from real coconut. And it does. It's tasty, and surprisingly, sugar-free as well. It was indeed made from real coconut, and as the what's on the top, well, it's just mint leaves, nata de coco, and yellow-jelly-like-stuff-I'm-not-familiar-w
See that white thing around the coconut? That's ice. Amazing decoration.
And the best thing of all? Is the present I received from 45 friends. Behold:
Lady Million (Eau de Parfum), by Paco Rabanne
Additional comment: It's an 80ml EDP damnit! Did I mention that I got a lot of compliments from my friends? Even though they're just smelling the box :B
I really want to spritz some on my wrist now, but I can't, because my current fragrance is still lingering -___-
I'm definitely using this tomorrow. And it seems like this will be my drug if I left my hometown later, sniffing it again and again. This is the reminder of my high-school years, after all :)
I have some good news and a bad news.
The good news are, I've taken my IELTS test and it went well (except for the speaking test because I'm totally unfamiliar with the topics). Then the three of us who participated in the test plus one of our friends went to have lunch and watched Hunger Games.
The bad news is, as soon as we came out from the cinema, I heard some rumors about the movie being satanic.
I don't like how everything that's slightly unordinary is being called satanic. It's called "Original", damnit. Why does Lady Gaga do weird things? To lift the number of sales, for the sake of entertainment, not because she is satanic. Oh my. What is it? What's the sign of satanism? The color black? The color red? Goths? Depressing songs? Dark clothes? Eyeliners? Heavy metal? Vocalists who scream and growl? Tarot cards? Marilyn Manson?
Do I like black? Yes.
Do I like red? Yes.
So I like both black and red? Definitely.
Am I interested in Gothic subculture? Absolutely.
Do i like dark, depressing songs? Yes.
... and heavy metal as well? Yeah.
Does that include all of those screamings and growlings? Of course.
Love to wear dark clothes? Yes.
How about eyeliners? Can't live without them.
Did I mention tarot cards? I have three decks.
And do I listen to Marilyn Manson? That so-called band made by a person who is chosen to be a priest in a curch of satan? YES. And in fact I listen to almost all of their albums and is waiting for their next one.
Am I a satanist? No.
Heed my last statement, all of you paranoid people.
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I can feel that my blog is rusting.
There has been a lot of things in my mind, so much events passed through my life. But I've started to forget all of those little details anyway. I don't even know what to write, actually. I just have this urge.
So let's see.. I have IELTS speaking test in 4 days, followed by the trio listening-reading-writing the day after. TBH, I'm not really prepared for those, especially for speaking and writing. Who can I talk to at home anyway? Well, a mirror does a good job so far. And I can't speak more than 3 sentences in english at school with my friends, because it seems.. awkward. And my writing sucks. I tried one at school earlier, and I spent 5 minutes more than the allocated 20 minutes. And it's not that the result was good anyway. It was somehow monotonous, which ironically, is what you don't really want to happen on the real test. I haven't even tried Task 2, the longer one, even when it has bigger impact on my band score later on.
And umm.. As for my portfolio, I've finally submitted it for my future college *relieved*. I'm not really happy with the final work, but I'm too exhausted to think about its beauty, tidiness, whatever-qualifications-on-a-portfolio. It can't be helped, since I did all of those designing, cutting, printing, and pasting during exam week. I didn't get enough sleep, hence my panda eyes right now. But, whatever, I've submitted all of those, and what's left is my IELTS score. And I'll just have to wait for the new term announcement in May. If I didn't pass, well...
Let's not think about that now.
Okay, enough of my procrastinating.
Did I mention that I dreamed of that guy more often nowadays? It was strange. He rarely appear in my dreams before. Anyway, better save that for months later. I've got bigger event with the countdown ongoing on my calender.
- Mood:
okay
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=3
We are in the middle of a competition, so a Like means a thousand to us.
Like this yoo :D
- Mood:
bouncy
I hate the situation I'm in right now. Seems like these kind of things never end, no matter how much I've tried. I wonder what I've done wrong in my past life that I have to bear such Karma now. Anyone?
And now new problem arises. It's a cliche actually; A loves B, B doesn't give a damn, C gets close to A, A starts to dream of C, A is confused whether the feelings are toward B or C.
Cliche in movies, that's it. I can't imagine those in real life. And that's what's happening. Cool, huh?
Kay, that first guy, the one i described in the previous story who didn't give a damn, I haven't talk to him for a week. Not even a word. Not even through texts. Well, we might have if only a certain guy didn't babble about my blog posts. Anyway, we're not that close before, so I can't entirely blame him. Guess my selfishness just want to find a black sheep, after all.
The other guy, I actually know him inside out because, well, he's my ex.
We talked a lot since a past few months, I even met him few days ago. That one I can say as a date gone wrong, as all of our plans were ruined by.. some situations* and we ended up buying some bread instead. Funny day :)
So yeah, I'm both gloomy and blooming right now.
I love that guy, I definitely have a feeling toward him. My heart yearns for him. It's been a long time. And yet he's so far from me. He seems to avoid me nowadays, even. TBH, I cried a lot. Helloow myself, you're seventeen, for God's sake, you cry for a guy? But then he, my ex, enters my life again. He was once an important person to me, so of course there's still a tiny room in my heart that cares about him. But I have been catching myself filling my head with images, memories of him. More than once.
I think my brain is about to split.
My mind switches back and forth between that guy and my ex. I don't know. Who do I like, actually?
Who do I love?
( * )
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